I have decided this is the time i become 100% honest with what is happening in my life. This is for many reasons... it will help me face up to what is around me rather than run around dealing with only things i like, but also maybe help me have more focus and sort out my own head. And of course your prayer, while i understand its wrong of my to think all readers of my blog we Christian (or of another faith is guess) i invite all readers to pray- i know it works and i have every faith that God will answer our prayers, his will be done and all that!
So where do i start?
Faith wise im doing good, i have had time resently to think and pray a lot with God and recognise his work in my life and just how blessed i am in him creating me and giving me the skills he has. I thank God everyday for the life he has given me and i want to continue doing so. My aim for this year is to become better at reading his word- the only way of knowing the word is reading it... so i need to do it!
And now comes the difficult bit of my family, or put better my family illness.
My dad has a brain tummour (cancer) and we are simply waiting for it to take a hold, he has good days and bad days, and i am truly thankful he is still working- it is keep him sane! I love my dad, we have our moments, but i know in my heart life will be very different soon.
My step nan, my mum's step mum is dying, she has cancer which seems to be taking a hold of her body at great speed. I dont know her all that well, but mum tells me how she is doing and knows what she is facing. She has an amazing friend who is looking after her as she gets worse, all praise to God for blessing that friendship.
But these things are taking a hold on my mum. She has MS, which is slowly getting worse and stress of life is taking its hold. over the past week she has had to get a walking stick to help her walk, something i had always hoped that would never be effected. Mum is doing amazingly well, and coping with the stress better than she knows, but it is all taking a massive toll on her.
I am thankful for my friends for they support me in my ways they dont know, at times i wish i was more able to say what is really happening in my head, but i know my silence is part of me!
Lastly, i want to say just how amazing my church is, while i am mostly there to work, the people are my family and so supportive in ALL i do, all thanks to God for how you all bless me!
right i need to do some work :-s
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LISTENING TO- all because of you by U2
