3 to go....

i am sooo tired of flipping writing... just let me do the job... this game isnt funny anymore!

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LISTENING TO- muse invincable

ok....

so i finished my directed task yesterday... meaning i only have 5 journals left...

ba ha ha

are you have a laugh, like i really can get them done?!

well i will at least try...

at the moment my staple food has become McVities Caramel digestives.... not good....

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

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LISTENING TO- wires by athete

ok honesty time...

so most of the people who read this will know what fieldwork is...

for those who do not... basically its to show i am able to be a youth worker by writing what seems like a million essays about different youth workery subjects...

so here is where i am honest, which will hopefully mean i will get on with my work... not that i am having a problem, i know what ive got to do, but i would like to celebrate each mini victory....

i have 5 journals left and one Directed Task left to do, and it would be great to finish it by my final fieldtutor meeting... on the 4th june... one week away...

i WILL get it done... but i will update when i get closer to my victory!

i realise i am losing time writing this... but i feel it is important to show my true emosion when i am able... however as a personal rule i try not to swear on my blog... please insert appropreiate words here____________________

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LISTENING TO- the tyranny of ducks by eddie izzard

wanted...

one man

taller than me

single

no unhealthy attachements
christian

lover of music

lover of me

good hugger essential

i dont mind being single... honest!

just today its annoying...

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LISTENING TO- get over it by OK go

PS em and i will write our turkey adventure when we have finished fieldwork... it might not ever happen... but we can hope!

We are back!....

WEll em and i had an amazing time away... and we will write our blogs soon... but here are a few of the photos for you to pine over...

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=22398&l=c6dc0&id=502940573

and

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=22553&l=63d4a&id=502940573

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LISENTING TO- black sabbeth paranoid

I guess its time for a mini rant...

At times I get so annoyed at being a woman... and being single... I know this is an age old rant.... I have made week in and month out... but I will probably go on about it until something (someone) else happens... then it will be something else...

But for now... you can choice to read this rant... I have the continual battle... of being genuinely happy being single... and then there is the gut killing feeling every now and again that when I see people being happy in couples... I become some jealous monster where it seems my eyes really DO turn green and all I want to do it cry, stomp, shout and then moan... I normally get to the crying stage... cry then feel annoyed at my annoyance and think I should get back to my ‘happiness’ of being me... and so the cycle continues...

Mr Bell in his great new book SEX GOD points out how lust (of anything) become a master (biblically shows it too)... and how we aren’t truly free is we are under the slavery of lust... we have freedom in Christ... as a Christian I know this and believe whole heartily... and that’s amazing!... but what I am realising is that I can still give myself over to other masters all my life... I can try and try to make Jesus my master... my creator knows best... but I still wander away like a child who needs rains but isn’t in them...

I continually ask God to help me and think I know better and ask in order for me to stop wondering off I need to have the thing I wonder off for with me then I wouldn’t wander off anymore... Rob Bell points out we always want something else... that extra thing... if God gave me what I wanted... then I would want more of something else... my problem isn’t solved... I still seek to serve another...

I ask you a question... what makes you wonder off and serve another master? How do we get back on track and not wonder off again and again?

LORD- please help me to keep on track, but more than this, help me to understand and feel 100% secure in my journey with you...

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LISTENING TO- backyard by Natasha Bedingfield

Trying to work... but had to show you my week...

Once again another week is nearly over and my productivity levels are that high on the college front... but i have been thinking lots... which does help (some how)... but i have been able to have a good week on the old live music front...

MONDAY- Maximo Park (with Art Brut supporting)

and oh how good the park were... i have been waiting a long long looong time to see them and they did not fail me!

As most people who know me will know there are only a few bands i would happily follow around the world to watch... i wont name them cos you jusy should know... but Maximo Park are now on that list with a HUGE tick and gold star rating!

Art brut were good too... its nice to enjoy the music from the start of the evening! And of course anyone who can make me giggle has to get votes... and Eddie Argos did do that!

And so onto my second dose of live music

WEDNESDAY- Justin Nuzoka (with The Cedar as support)

I know is will be a good gig when the venue is so small even the people at the back are also at the front... and The Croft in Bristol did that well.

So i knew and still dont know much about Justin other than he was born in the USA and is far too young for me to find attactive (18).... But my goodness that boy can sing!! A very tallented guy who deserves to go far, i only own one track of his (free from itunes) but the songs he sang on wednesday shows the depth of language and experience you wonder were it comes from...

I know i am a big wimp when it comes to anything that has a chance of making my cry, but the emotion some of his songs had was powerful (but the tears did manage to stay in my eyes for once!)

The support act were just as good... The Cedar, folk music and clearly tallented... and i now own their CDs.... look out for them!

better go and do some work...

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LISTENING TO- Art Brut, fight

hands up if....

you flippin HATE fieldwork right now?

que- angry/stressed face....