But I know I need to do something productive...
But this productive streak is simply avoidance. It requires me to be patient, it needs me to wait and it drives me to want to be a little crazy...
What I find hardest is not really sharing what is happening. I have nothing to hide, but what is going on right is part of my private life.
And so my ramble starts to take shape...
I'm starting to look for a new job... This by itself is a little scary, but I'm not worried about that... But it has highlighted something about what I want to address as I leave one chapter of my life and start another.
The difference between my personal and private life...
As a single woman with very little family work takes over... I hope this is a normal thing, but even more so when your job is your calling. But this comes at a cost, my status as a single woman with very little family does not change.
And so while I have a pretty much blank sheet for my new start... I do want to find a between balance... I want to say 'I want a life'. But that makes it sound like I don't like what I have now... I do, I'm thankful for all I do, have experienced and learnt.
But how do I DO that?!
If I am called to serve somewhere then the balance of my personal and professional life be dictated by that calling... And there is my answer... If I am CALLED then the balance will be there, this is were faith comes in... And the stakes raise in the worry factor, which becomes a silly cycle of frustration, control, recognition and obedience.
So... My journey continues and I pray my faith grows along with it.
And I hit enter on a blog entry that has provided with a distractions from something little bit more removed from what I have rambled on about for a few moments...
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But this productive streak is simply avoidance. It requires me to be patient, it needs me to wait and it drives me to want to be a little crazy...
What I find hardest is not really sharing what is happening. I have nothing to hide, but what is going on right is part of my private life.
And so my ramble starts to take shape...
I'm starting to look for a new job... This by itself is a little scary, but I'm not worried about that... But it has highlighted something about what I want to address as I leave one chapter of my life and start another.
The difference between my personal and private life...
As a single woman with very little family work takes over... I hope this is a normal thing, but even more so when your job is your calling. But this comes at a cost, my status as a single woman with very little family does not change.
And so while I have a pretty much blank sheet for my new start... I do want to find a between balance... I want to say 'I want a life'. But that makes it sound like I don't like what I have now... I do, I'm thankful for all I do, have experienced and learnt.
But how do I DO that?!
If I am called to serve somewhere then the balance of my personal and professional life be dictated by that calling... And there is my answer... If I am CALLED then the balance will be there, this is were faith comes in... And the stakes raise in the worry factor, which becomes a silly cycle of frustration, control, recognition and obedience.
So... My journey continues and I pray my faith grows along with it.
And I hit enter on a blog entry that has provided with a distractions from something little bit more removed from what I have rambled on about for a few moments...
x
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