finally I have blogger on my iPhone!!

So hopefully now my blogging should be up to date... Maybe

Altho I can not work out if this a good thing yet!

I have one of many thoughts at the moment... It has taken a long time, but now a relationship I gave longed for almost all my life is amazing, a little too late. But will be a blessed memory forever...

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Listening to: the tv... Masterchef

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[Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

Its been a while...

So it has been an age since my last blog... not masses to update anyone on really...

I am on the move again, my flat is being sold so i am off to another flat about a mile away from where i am... it is a little bigger than what i have now... so winner!

So...

i have had a mass influx of technology in my life as of late... the iphone is now my very own, and church have new laptops and i been reflecting the need or desire to communicate or at least make your mark in the internet world...

 

when i think about network sites i am only a member of facebook... but then when i list other sites that aren't myspace or bebo... i realise i network online more than i would have thought...

blogging (clearly)

facebook

twitter 

and my latest... snaplog

what do i want to achieve from all this posting, wall writing and pokes?!

first i need to point out i haven't ever come to the point where i have needed to poke someone via facebook- two reasons... store them up for reality and it just seems silly to poke when you could just say hi, but meh that's just me...

i say at some point each week how i like to have the attention... which is true

[for example my performance at karaoke last night wasn't just a simple singing but act for anyone who would watch, which turned out to be a few]

... so then is all this just ways of just jumping up and down and saying look at me?

or is there more?

should there be more?

i think there is... our worth comes from how we are seen in others... how best to work out how someone feels about us by giving them something to react to?

So then am i (us/we/you) just asking everyone to tell us what our worth is?

As a Christian the bible tells us what we are worth to God... everything.

This should be enough... shouldn't it?

and it is, but there are times when you need people around you so show that love, that affirmation.

I was preparing sundays discussion today, as a church we are starting 40 days of community on sunday so we are starting it in the teen classes too this first one fore us is 'better together' 'belonging'...

Paul writes in three different letters the value of the community who are together, each having their own gifts and abilities to the benefit of the whole....

together we make more sense than alone...

so then is internet engagement part of this or is it still too superficial? is it skating on the top when we need to go further... the further then real life engagement which no amount of pictures, words or hits can replace?

how to we make the reality of interfacing via a source of wires and blinking lights more than just a flat screen?

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LISTENING TO- Grounds for divorce by Elbow

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It's Christmas time...

The title would suggest i am either going to spring into 'do they know it's Christmas' or i am at least just stating the time of year it is right now...

Either way Christmas is but 9 ish days away and my fake Christmas is just two days away, but this doesn't stop me thinking of other things...

At work we have a nativity on Sunday morning, which is always good to see the littles doing something cute- and we have a good habit of making sure we dont just repeat the year before of 'traditional' nativity scene setting which is great for all those involved and watching.

I am leading and doing the talky bit of the service and i guess this a kind of sneak preview of at least what i am thinking about saying.

But really i want to talk and am thinking about avoidance.

Christmas is a massive time of busyness, the time of year when you have to be with people when you want to be alone and when loneliness is at its most depressing...

 

The shopping

The food

The memories

The TV

The traditions

 

Christmas is action packed... but i wonder if we thing or reflect what is is all about, yes hopefully most people know at least it is in memory of the birth of Jesus... does this mean anything more?

For Christians and myself included it is a celebrated time to mark God's love, choosing to come into a world, to live in perfection to then lead to the events of Easter.

Americans have thanks giving day... and i cant help think that Christmas needs to learn from this. Christmas is a time to take stock and listen to what it means to be in relationship with God who created a whole plot line working out the best possible way to make it possible for that relationship to be rebuilt. And then from that listening to take action, to be truly thankful.

I am not sure what this looks like, and i know i like to personally wallow in my self pity, or selfness at times, but i guess i am asking what does it mean to be truly thankful and how do you show it?

In my head i remind myself of Grace, the undeserving gift, where there is nothing we can do to make up for the love given to us but to accept it... this is hard when you want control, when you want to feel you have earn it.

When we feel we have done enough to make ourselves worth loving, when really we are loved more than we know or than we are worth in human terms...

I am not sure quite where i am going now...

So i will stop...

Happy Christmas to all who read this and may 2009  be a year to remember for all its reasons

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Listening to- Human by the Killers (and myself wishing i had ross noble tickets for may 14th :P )

Praying for- guidance with friends

'just'...

This is only going to be a short one...

But i an getting more and more annoyed at the limitations i place in my prayers... by a short and simple word...

just

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LISTENING TO: Arguments by RID 

PRAYING FOR: the young people i am working with