So at the moment life its a little different...
In fact it will probably never be the same ever again...
New life...
This coming Saturday I have been asked to give the 'talk' at a local Youth Service... which i am looking forward to in a kinda 'oh my' kinda way. But it is a great way of keeping my grounded... the more i have to think and reflect on things that are outside of my head the better....
I have been given the topic of 'life'... the idea came from the new term and new life in Christ thinking...
And i am realising right now this minute i am two steps over the edge of the new life i have now...
My new job is great... being part of a community and serving, using my skills to continue what is happening and thinking about starting new projects and adventures.
However i say two steps off the edge as this new start i can never return from or start again... My father is in hospital, and is dying. It is unlikely he will make it to Christmas, and daily is becoming less and less like himself...
My new life will have someone missing and my relationships will change as a part of thing.
My dad is safe and secure in his faith, and strongly believes he knows what will happen once he has died... the bible talks of the security we have in Christ, and i can see this in action more than ever right now.
Neither of us are scared of death... which is something so many people it would seem are and fight so hard against. I could rant about so much more on this but i will leave it for now...
I want to keep on track with thinking about life... New life...
When we are born we have life, some would believe its part of one continuous cycle, as one dies another is brought into being. 
Others, like myself, would say a new life, a whole new person, a fresh being.
But it doesnt just stop there does it?
New life doesnt just start at the minute you were born into this world, while it does, isn't there countless more times we start again, we begin a new chapter. Some are chosen, and some just happen...
But this brings a challenge of what do we do with this new starts. These new lives we have... what does it mean? What can be the impacts?
The list could be endless of the positive or negatives... but doesnt it bring a sense of freedom? Certainly in the Christian faith you begin within the Freedom of Christ when you start your journey.
Looking at what it means with what will happen to me soon... i will start again a new chapter with no earthly father... is this a kind of freedom? Not to say i wish my dad dead, nor say i am trapped within parental concerns. But that this freedom is me standing on my own feet... i HAVE to grow up a little more. I will still be the silly little girl who seeks attention at all times... but that the responsibility of my father for me now rests on my own shoulders and not his.
As i look to prepare my talk for Saturday i will be looking at the new and asking what does it mean? what do we lose and what does that change?
I dont want to give the answers... i want to help to seek to explore...
May God help me
x
LISTENING TO- Bloc Party- Like eating glass
No comments:
Post a Comment